Be encouraged as you read the lyrics to Rita Springer’s I Have to Believe.  Our church’s worship team put together a soulful rendition of the song that was quite powerful.  If you’d like to hear a version of the song, go here.

I HAVE TO BELIEVE

I have to believe that He sees my darkness

I have to believe that He knows my pain 
I have to lift up my hands to worship 
Worship His name 
I have to declare that He is my refuge 
I have to deny that I am alone 
I have to lift up my eyes to the mountains  
It’s where my help comes from 
He said that He’s forever faithful; He said that He’s forever true 
He said that He can move mountains, and if He can move mountains

He can move my mountain, He can move Your mountain too

I have to stand tall when the wind blows me over 
I have to stand strong when I’m weak and afraid 
I have to grab hold, a hold of the garments 
The garments of praise

I have to sing praise when the hour is midnight 
When He unlocks these chains that bind up my soul 
My sin and my shame, He has forgiven, and made me whole

He said that He’s forever faithful, He said that He’s forever true 
He said that He can move mountains; He said that He can move mountains

He said that He can move mountains; And if He can move mountains 
He can move my mountain; He can move Your mountain too

The parts that are most meaningful to me and why:

• I have to deny that I am alone.  Sometimes I feel very alone.  It’s inexplicable because there’s no reason why I should feel like that.  I have a wonderful husband who is very understanding and supportive, and I am blessed with precious girlfriends.  Maybe it’s the heat that has made the summer very isolating to me.  But the Truth is, is that I am not alone (Psalm 139:7-10).  Jesus is with me day in, day out.  And I will not forget that over the past seven months, He has surely let me know He’s with me every step of the way.
• I have to lift up my eyes to the mountains; it’s where my help comes from.  Boy, I have never prayed for His help more than I have in the last seven months!  This verse comes from Psalm 121 and it’s been a stabilizing source of encouragement to me.  I am discovering that the only thing constant in parenting is that it’s ever changing.  I might have Brennan figured out one day, only for him to switch things up the next.  My type-A personality that would prefer having a specific instruction manual provided for every aspect of parenting is slowly being choked to death.  <grin>  It keeps me on my knees, remembering that the Truth is, is that He has given me everything that I need for life and godliness (1 Peter 2:3).
• He said that He can move mountains; And if He can move mountains, He can move my mountain; He can move your mountain too.  What are my mountains?  Insecurity in my role as a momma.  Worrying about what other people think of me.  Fear of failing.  Feelings of being an insignificant nobody.  I also think of the mountains called cancer and broken relationships that others are trusting the Lord to move.  There is no mistaking that life is brutal sometimes, and we all can easily be overwhelmed by those rugged mountains in front of us.  The truth is, is that nothing is impossible with God (Luke 1:37) and hope does not disappoint (Romans 5:5).

I have to believe that which is True.  I choose to believe.  What are you choosing to believe of Him?

If we are faithless, He will remain faithful, for He cannot disown Himself.

2 Timothy 2:13